It’s always intriguing to find out new facts about people you thought you knew fairly well, at least for me it is! As I prepared today’s blog I thought, “you know, there are some things about me that might really surprise some folk if they knew!” so, here we are!
1. I used to be DEATHLY afraid to sing in front of ANYONE!!!!
When people first got wind of the gift God had given me to sing, they started asking me to sing…OUT LOUD. It would tear my nerves to SHREDS!! It would happen pretty much the same way every time – I would accidentally hum something aloud, either to a song that was playing at the time or just a melody in my head, and they would say, “You can sing! Sing something.” My initial thought would always be, “apparently you just heard something, and that’s enough!” My voice would tremble uncontrollably and I would look straight into the ceiling. I eventually started asking people to turn around so that I couldn’t see them looking at me. I would even go into the girl’s bathroom in school and stand in a stall with the doors closed to sing for classmates when they asked; this audience, of course, was comprised of females only, but at that time the guys didn’t care about it anyway! In 8th grade I broke free from the fear, and by then you couldn’t stop me!!
“Jazz Hot Mamas” – Can’t stop singing!
2. For YEARS I struggled with a Food Addiction…
I can remember all the way back to my pre-teen years sneaking food from Gammy’s cupboard or refrigerator and hiding out somewhere in the backyard to eat it. I mean everything from Iced Oatmeal Cookies, to cans of Borden’s Sweetened Condensed Milk (Can you IMAGINE?!?!) I would stash-n-dash!! As I got older the habit continued, on into my adult life when I would wake up in the middle of the night and broil 2 T-Bone steaks, eat them, and go back to bed. Up until my late twenties, I had been able to keep this up without showing any signs of it in my weight, but that ship PLUMETTED! By about 28 years old I noticed I had gone from the cozy size 10 I’d been rockin’ since high school, to a slightly fluffier 12. By 29 I was wearing a size 14 and weighing 175 lbs. I decided it was time to make some changes and in a few months I was back in a size 10 and weighing in at 155. I would repeat this habit on up until my mid-thirties when I decided I MUST find out what this yo-yo thing was all about. I had a holistic doctor at the time, whom I LOVED! I had managed to meet, knock-down, and trample over the 200 mark, weighing in at 226 lbs! At 5’5 and my youngest child already into his teen years, this was UNACCEPTABLE! I shared with Dr. Powell what my weight loss goals were and showed her the women’s vitamin pack I’d purchased at GNC. She told me to return it to the store, and take the money to the grocery store to purchase a list she’d prepared for me. I did it, I ate the foods, incorporated weight lifting into my physical activities routine, and within 6 months I went from 226 lbs to 165 lbs, wearing an 8/10! I didn’t discover that this was all a result of food addiction until much later, not even a year ago. When I saw the weight creeping back on, I decided to keep a food journal. I journaled not only what I ate, but the times I ate and my mood before and after. This gave me revelation that I NEVER imagined – but that’s ANOTHER blog! (Tee-Hee!)
Gammy and I…I Love her to the Moon & Back! (She ALWAYS knew EXACTLY how many cans of Borden’s Condensed Milk she had! LOL!!)
3. I am a survivor of Domestic Violence…Glory be to God!!!
Marrying at a very young age (18) makes it safe to say that there is plenty you’re not going to be prepared for. Having left your parents home where you had a bedroom and a few chores around the house, and coming into a home that is now your domestic responsibility is a HUGE wake-up call. Couple that with a 1-year-old active baby boy and a belly full of newborn baby, you can safely say “Mattie…you’re not in Kansas anymore!” As overwhelming as it all was, NOTHING was more devastating than what I would face not even one month into this nightmare. The very first attack would have me dangling over our second-floor balcony with threats to drop me if I ever wasted his money like that again! He was referring to the fact that I had fallen asleep in the movie theater we’d left about an hour before. This kind of volatile and unpredictable behavior would continue for the duration of the marriage, which wouldn’t be long. In January of 2000, God delivered me from that torment and spared my life. 16 years later, he gave me DOUBLE for my shame when he blessed my life with my husband, Minister R James Thompson Jr. The story is far too long for a blog post but stick with me and eventually, you’ll hear it!
The Man of My Dreams, My Good and Perfect Gift!!
Well, I hope this was fun for you…it sure felt liberating for me! Feel free to reply with your own set of “Fun Facts” and together, let’s start getting rid of some of these MASKS!